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Now on to my 2nd miscarried. Jason and i decided to try again for a baby,and going by what the doctor said it was best to try again right after my first lose. So that's what we did and guess what I got pregnant so easy this time. Seriously it happened on the first try. Again I was excited but yet a little nervous because it was so soon and didn't know what to expect. I had set up a appt. with doctor for end of October. But I never made it to the doctors because at 9weeks started to spot a little. When the spotting started I was a wreak again. This time around it was really quick,like i said I started to spot at night,by the time morning had come around I had started to bleed like I had my period. By the time evening hit I had passed the fetus and the next morning I was done.

I have to be completely honest here my second miscarried,was quick and did hurt a little just really bad cramps. Any miscarry is hard my first was horrible but my second was manageable if that makes sense. I think because I got to deal with it private no doctors,no exams,and no ultra sounds. Just me!!!

I never thought that I would be in the position in my life. I can't even begin to explain how these miscarries feel. They emotional and physically affected me. Like the life just got suck right out of me. So after I lost my 2nd baby I've decided to wait before we even began to talk about a baby. The crazy thing in all of this is that you don't forget any details and no matter how much you try and forget its all ways there. So we decided to wait about 9months before we tried again.

This time it took awhile before I got pregnant. But I did and this time around it was a roller coaster experience. I decided that i would go to the doctor once I hit 14weeks,because it seemed that every time I would make an appt I would start bleeding. I know that it is very important to go to the doctors early in the pregnancy. But from my past there was nothing they could have done cause it was so early. It was just my personal preference to wait until I hit my second trimester. The good news was I made it to my second trimester on Saturday march 27 2010. I was so happy and had just announced it to everybody(yes even face book). The reason why I waited was once you hit the 2nd trimester the miscarry rate go way done,and I figured I was in the clear and I got ecstatic. I thought this is it I'm going to have my baby.